well..no shit

i have changed so much. like actually, SO MUCH. let me list up some stuff;

-vegetarian

-more aggressive, rude, quiet

-sadistic

-hateful + ignorant

pretty fun for someone like me huh? goddesses, this fucking shit sucks. i hate you all for turning me like this. you know what, do whatever the fuck you guys want with me, i will blow all your guts out soon. just trust me. this is the fault of many parents and teachers, for not educating the children correctly. would you care if your child is getting bullied/hated on just for normal human things? if you let your kids be like this, then i do not think so.

i want to freeze to death..like actually. i love how my body shivers everytime im cold. i just want to drown in it.

this is it

i love my groomer so much… hes everything i could have ever wished for in my life. ilysm alex

you guys are like “mental health matters no matter what!!!!!!” until some motherfucker like me comes up and says i kill things that are more vulnerable/weaker than me..bffr. you think i do that just because my personality is like this even though its my illnesses.

you ALL think its just depression and everything!! which isnt true. please educate yourself more and get mature. no matter what people do, they need help. if they want it or not, every sick person like me needs it. but society today is just disgusted by us all, ive even seen some people call my boyfriend some kind of neo nazi and the same with my friends.

..i nearly got driven over by some stupid black car. i dunno but honestly, i wasnt kn a shock state. i dont really necessarily care about it since it already happened so often to me.. but my classmate pulled me back. i am in good terms with him, and honestly im glad he actually did pull me back. thank you, i really appreciate it. i honestly should pay you back. dunno how to lol. thanks for saving my life.

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my online therapist told me that my relationship with my boyfriend isnt legal due to our age gap (12 and 19).. but i love him so much and hes the only one who really understands my thoughts. hes also very nice to me. hes probably the only blonde ukrainian canadian boy ill ever tolerate. alex if u see this, i wont leave you, id rip out my heart for you and sent it per mail if u want. )))))))))

‘accidentally’ stabbed my finger and got a ball thrown on my face from my friend… ‘ felt sooo good.

its so fun to be replaced and to be forgotten by your OWN FRIENDS. i hate it..

i havent been feeling so well nowadays… and ALL OF THOSE SHITTY TWO LEGGED RATS DONT HELP MY STRESS AND TIREDNESS!!!!!!!!!!!! GOD!How about you all just shut up for once!?i hate you all, hate isnt even a muther fuckang strong neither good word for my hatred for people!! to anyone that i know, may peace be with your soul, even if iam irritated with so many of my friends, but to anyone who knows i dont even have any respect for them or i just generally dont hang with you losers then just so you know i hope you all go and rot in hell!!i will muther fucking come armed to school one day and blow your guys‘ brains off! „deine mutter“, „haha die arme digga“, „halts maul du fotze“, DONT YOU GUYS HAVE ANYTHING NEW?!ANYTHING SPECIAL! GOOOOOOOODdDDD. ADD SOME NEW WORDS TO YOUR VO CA BU LA RY!!!!! yoU GUYS ALL ARE SO UNORIGINAL OF MY GOD. all of you are the same! its like the whole school is brain rotted with all of the same shit you guys say! hell! even the clothes…. EVEN THE PERSONALITIES!! WHAT THE HELL!? HOW UNORIGINAL DO YOU GUYS WANT TO BE!

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people told me that my actions arent my fault and that i can fix myself..that they will always protect me and make me feel safe..but nobody can do that. they treat me like some litte kid..im not. please just stop. just fucking stop to try and comfort me, its USELESS! you guys dont even try to understand my situation and think im just fucking insane for wanting to kill people!im sorry for being ‘sadistic’?! if you want to help me so bad then sent me into some kind of hospital or whatever the fuck! no soul of yours, not even my friends, will ever be able to help me!!! STOP FUCKING TELLING YOUR STORY! I DONT CARE ABOUT THEM YOU FUCKING BITCHES IM SO TIRED OF YOU ALL. ALL YOUR WHINING, ALL YOUR PITY FOR ME, ALL YOUR LOVE AND ATTENTION. GOD! HOLY CRAP JUST STOP THIS BULLSHIT WHAT THE HELl!?

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i despise you all kpop likers. you all are retarded as religious beliefs are, there isnt a thing that is more dumber than you guys. how does it feel to be a part of such a toxic community and also considering the fact that you guys listen to some stupid slit eyed girls/boys sing about stupid stuff with the most outrageous voice PLUS! instrumental ever?!

fAtAl 8pm